[Ooops, she messed up with her emotions today, again. Well today is a really messed up day anyway and considering how hysterical she's back home, this breakdown was probably something to be expected from a very (or the most) emotional member of her squad. What is this situation even? First she was in front of that insane titan, sure she's going to be the next to die in a second or two at max, and then she's suddenly -- here, wheerever this world is -- with Levi. Apparently this is a day for surprising situations, but this? This is definitely a much better surprise than the one from before, where everything's supposed to be fine and then suddenly they were attacked...
Sorry, kitten, it's not like Petra doesn't appreciate the efforts of comforting her -- in fact, she really really does -- but she doesn't really pay any attention to the Purrloin right now.
She's trying to calm down. She should calm down, right? Elite soldiers, or any soldiers, are not supposed to lose to their raging emotions! Levi had said it himself, just some time ago today, after that sound grenade. Yet, here she is, completely losing herself to that hysterical panic, again, and acting like a huge crybaby. That's a thing now when Petra has time to think about the whole situation and hear those words from Levi, or even see him again.
Speaking of the man, whom she devoted her whole life for, she doesn't notice him coming closer. Hears it, sure, but since she's really not paying enough attention to him right now while she's trying to calm down... Welp. Petra is almost ashamed of this breakdown, almost. He'd understand, sure, but it's still not okay if you ask her! What kind of an Elite Soldier just breaks down like this in front of the corporal? Well, apparently she does today and she's not fine with it. She should calm down!! She knows that. But she can't, like, at all. Super sorry, corporal, it's not like she doesn't understand how you're probably feeling about this. She does get it quite well after following him for so long and getting to know him while she's been there for him.
So since she doesn't quite realize that he's coming closer, it takes her by a surprise when Levi puts a hand on her shoulder. Petra startles. It's just really surprising, that's all. It shouldn't be, she's seen him deal with injured / dying / comfort needing soldiers before, like that one time when he grabbed a comrade's hand even though it was soaking in blood. She had been crying back then too, hadn't she? Well, back then she controlled her crying well, today is not the same situation at all. She's shaking. And she shakes her head to his 'Hey'. ... No wait, head shake is no good. She'll nod after it. She'll calm down, just watch it!!
...Yeah, it's not actually happening, though she loves his gesture to bits and pieces.
He's trying to help, calm the fuck down! is what she tries to tell herself, but that's not really helping either.]
...Sorry...
[Really? Really really? Is that the only thing she can say today? Okay, no but she's really sorry for losing it like this and making him feel really uncomfortable with her ridiculous crybaby behavior. Also she's sorry for dying, even if one shouldn't be sorry for their own death, but you know, this girl and her priorities. Someone, who's been hand-picked by Levi to an elite squad shouldn't have panicked in any situation, but she did back home. And she'd die because she made that mistake and that's really not okay. She's not okay with that. That's not -- when she said she'd devote her whole life for him in the war against the titans, she kind of expected that her life wouldn't be so short.
Wait, what is going on? Why is he putting his other hand on her other shoulder? I-Is that like telling her to calm down even more than he was with just one? She's trying to, it's not working. Today is the worst day of her life, she needs a longer moment to cope with it. She feels his grip tighten, then she's really not sure what is going on when Levi suddenly pulls her forward. Petra would ask Corporal, what are you --, but she can't get her voice to work in the seconds, that she is even more surprised by his actions.
For a moment she just stands still there, in his arms, too surprised by Levi's action to move at all. A hug? From the corporal? But he never -- Ohh, sure, be even more amazing than ever today, as if she doesn't think highly of him even before this. She was definitely NOT expecting to get a hug from a man, who she adores!! The girl literally thought it would be just the hand on shoulder thing and that's it, because he's always so distant. Petra swallows.
What is she supposed to do now? She's certainly not new to hugs, she's a very approacble, hugger-type person, who could hug everyone often. But this is new... Very new to him too, probably and she should take that into consideration --]
No, it's not -- [She shuts up, not wanting to disagree with him on that because it will be fine.]
[Do you need hugging lessons, Levi? Uh, even if your answer is no, well -- the girl, realizing he's still there and really, really there and so close doesn't really consider her actions at all. Instead Petra just kind of literally throws her arms around him/ his neck. Hello, did you expect this to be a short and awkward hug? Think again, Levi! She'll be clinging to him like it's the only action, that's going to fucking stop her from going back home right now.
Meanwhile her heart is racing like it's about to go insane. Hear that? She's very much alive right here, even if that's kind of obvious from the fact that she's not even dead back home in her time yet.]
adjdjskjdjskl, what are you doing to my heart?!! ugh, next wall is about calming down, promise
Sorry, kitten, it's not like Petra doesn't appreciate the efforts of comforting her -- in fact, she really really does -- but she doesn't really pay any attention to the Purrloin right now.
She's trying to calm down. She should calm down, right? Elite soldiers, or any soldiers, are not supposed to lose to their raging emotions! Levi had said it himself, just some time ago today, after that sound grenade. Yet, here she is, completely losing herself to that hysterical panic, again, and acting like a huge crybaby. That's a thing now when Petra has time to think about the whole situation and hear those words from Levi, or even see him again.
Speaking of the man, whom she devoted her whole life for, she doesn't notice him coming closer. Hears it, sure, but since she's really not paying enough attention to him right now while she's trying to calm down... Welp. Petra is almost ashamed of this breakdown, almost. He'd understand, sure, but it's still not okay if you ask her! What kind of an Elite Soldier just breaks down like this in front of the corporal? Well, apparently she does today and she's not fine with it. She should calm down!! She knows that. But she can't, like, at all. Super sorry, corporal, it's not like she doesn't understand how you're probably feeling about this. She does get it quite well after following him for so long and getting to know him while she's been there for him.
So since she doesn't quite realize that he's coming closer, it takes her by a surprise when Levi puts a hand on her shoulder. Petra startles. It's just really surprising, that's all. It shouldn't be, she's seen him deal with injured / dying / comfort needing soldiers before, like that one time when he grabbed a comrade's hand even though it was soaking in blood. She had been crying back then too, hadn't she? Well, back then she controlled her crying well, today is not the same situation at all. She's shaking. And she shakes her head to his 'Hey'. ... No wait, head shake is no good. She'll nod after it. She'll calm down, just watch it!!
...Yeah, it's not actually happening, though she loves his gesture to bits and pieces.
He's trying to help, calm the fuck down! is what she tries to tell herself, but that's not really helping either.]
...Sorry...
[Really? Really really? Is that the only thing she can say today? Okay, no but she's really sorry for losing it like this and making him feel really uncomfortable with her ridiculous crybaby behavior. Also she's sorry for dying, even if one shouldn't be sorry for their own death, but you know, this girl and her priorities. Someone, who's been hand-picked by Levi to an elite squad shouldn't have panicked in any situation, but she did back home. And she'd die because she made that mistake and that's really not okay. She's not okay with that. That's not -- when she said she'd devote her whole life for him in the war against the titans, she kind of expected that her life wouldn't be so short.
Wait, what is going on? Why is he putting his other hand on her other shoulder? I-Is that like telling her to calm down even more than he was with just one? She's trying to, it's not working. Today is the worst day of her life, she needs a longer moment to cope with it. She feels his grip tighten, then she's really not sure what is going on when Levi suddenly pulls her forward. Petra would ask Corporal, what are you --, but she can't get her voice to work in the seconds, that she is even more surprised by his actions.
For a moment she just stands still there, in his arms, too surprised by Levi's action to move at all. A hug? From the corporal? But he never -- Ohh, sure, be even more amazing than ever today, as if she doesn't think highly of him even before this. She was definitely NOT expecting to get a hug from a man, who she adores!! The girl literally thought it would be just the hand on shoulder thing and that's it, because he's always so distant. Petra swallows.
What is she supposed to do now? She's certainly not new to hugs, she's a very approacble, hugger-type person, who could hug everyone often. But this is new... Very new to him too, probably and she should take that into consideration --]
No, it's not -- [She shuts up, not wanting to disagree with him on that because it will be fine.]
[Do you need hugging lessons, Levi? Uh, even if your answer is no, well -- the girl, realizing he's still there and really, really there and so close doesn't really consider her actions at all. Instead Petra just kind of literally throws her arms around him/ his neck. Hello, did you expect this to be a short and awkward hug? Think again, Levi! She'll be clinging to him like it's the only action, that's going to fucking stop her from going back home right now.
Meanwhile her heart is racing like it's about to go insane. Hear that? She's very much alive right here, even if that's kind of obvious from the fact that she's not even dead back home in her time yet.]